Not Meant To Be (with lyrics)…

3 May

Back in October of 2002, I was signed to a company called Dope House Records. The rap duo that I was in, Twin Beredaz, released our self titled album. It did exceptionally well regionally. One of the more popular songs on the album was a solo song that I recorded called Not Meant To Be. I had written the lyrics 3 years prior to the albums release. I was only 17 when I wrote it but always had it tucked away in one of my notebooks. Towards the end of the production process for the Twin Beredaz album, a young Iranian producer named Hotan passed me a CD with samples of his beats. All it took was one listen and I immediately knew that it was time to bring that old song out of my stash. I remember the recording session for this song quite clearly.

It was about 2 A.M. and the streets were wet and reflective from the rain that had passed earlier that evening. Inside the smaller studio at Dope House’s warehouse building sat Jaime “Pain” Ortiz, Quotakey (the other half of the group), and myself. Initially, Quota was supposed to rap on the song too. I remember him sitting there with his spiral notebook open. After a few hours, he had a verse written. He never recorded it. He told me that he didn’t feel as if his verse was going to tie in with the rest of the song. He saw the track from a creative standpoint and decided that his verse would not be beneficial for the song, sonically. I had Jaime rearrange the third verse into an 8 bar bridge and burn it onto a CD. I stepped outside and wrote the remainder of the song in Quota’s car. (My piece o’ shit car only had a tape player.) A little while later, I walked back into that small studio and recorded. After it was all done, we walked out and saw that the sun was shining already. It was a long night, but in my memory, it only lasted a few moments.

I can remember being hesitant about putting the song on the album. A part of me didn’t think it was good enough. I wasn’t too comfortable with my singing and also I could tell that it didn’t really fit in with the rest of the album’s subject matter. It’s a song about relationships. The rest of our material was violence, money, and drugs. I think the main reason why I ended up approving the song for the final master was because it was a part of our adventure. There was not a single song that we recorded that DIDN’T go on the album. It was like “Why hide any of this? We worked our asses off. We might as well fill up this CD.”  And we did… literally. A CD can only hold 80 minutes worth of music. The Twin Beredaz album uses a total of 79 minutes, 58 seconds.

Am I talking too much? Anyways, we released the song and much like the rest of the album, Not Meant To Be became a classic. Here we are, 8 years later, and people still come up to me to tell me how much this song means to them. Its passing the test of time I suppose.

Here is a YouTube video that someone posted. I will provide the lyrics as well. Aside from this song being one of my most memorable, it’s also the one I’ve noticed where people screw up the lyrics the most. FYI: It is NOT “…How can I love you when the past is gone.”

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN AT FIRST YOUR LOVE FOR ME WAS LOVELY

I GAVE YOU CUSTODY OF ALL MY TRUST IN TURN YOU FUCKED WITH ME, IT SUCKS TO BE

THE VICTIM OF A LADY WHO WOULD SAY TO YOU “I’M PLAYING YOU”

I KNOW I SHOULD’VE HATED YOU BUT MAYBE WE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH

THE GAMES AND THE LIES, CAUSE THE SHAME IN YOUR EYES

TOLD ME THINGS COULD BE ALRIGHT, JUST TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME

I WAS A FOOLISH CAT FOR DOING THAT. I CANT BELIEVE I TOOK YOU BACK

WHY THE HELL YOU TOOK THE PATH WHERE PAIN INCREASED AND SOON COLLAPSED

LOOK I DON’T MEAN TO MAKE YOU CRY BUT IF I DO, BABY I’M SORRY

I DON’T NEED YOU IN MY LIFE SO YOU HAVE TO BACK UP OFF ME

AFTER ALL WE BEEN THROUGH, I CAN’T FORGET HOW MUCH YOU’RE BITCHING AT ME

BITCH WE COULD’VE BEEN SO HAPPY. YOUR TRIPPIN’ IS GETTING AT ME

SO NOW YOU’RE OUT THE DOOR WITHOUT YOUR CLOTHES

GET DOWN THE ROAD CAUSE LOVE DON’T LIVE HERE NO MORE

YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH MY HONESTY THEN HONESTLY WE’RE NOT HERE

TO BE TOGETHER SO LETS STOP HERE

(I TOLD HER)

I DONT THINK WE’RE GONNA LAST TOO LONG

(HOW CAN I)

HOW CAN I LOVE YOU WHEN THE PASSIONS GONE

(AND I’M NOT)

I”M NOT TRY’NA MAKE YOU CRY I’M JUST TRY’NA MAKE YOU REALIZE

THAT WE’RE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER


I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MORE COMPLEX THAN JUST THE SEX I GUESS I WAS WRONG

CAUSE  YOU AINT HESITATE TO PLAY ME BABY THAT’S WHY I’M GONE

WE DON’T BELONG TOGETHER AND I WON’T EVEN BOTHER ARGUING

I’M GONE FOREVER, PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS HARD FOR ME

SEE ALL I EVER NEEDED WAS A REASON TO BE WITH YOU

BUT LATELY ALL YOU GAVE ME WAS HEADACHES, YOU FUCKING BITCH. YOU…

AINT GONNA HAVE ME OUT HERE STRESSING OVER NOTHING LIKE “WHAT’S UP TONIGHT?”

WE FUSS AND FIGHT HE OBVIOUSLY DON’T FUCK YOU RIGHT

ENOUGH AIGHT I’M SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING WE GO THROUGH

YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME BUT YOU DON’T LOVE ME LIKE YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO

AND THEN YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO ASK ME IF I’M CHEATING ON YOU

THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT ME WHEN I’M REACHING OUT AND BREATHING ON YOU

WE USED TO BE THE PERFECT COUPLE BUT YOU FUCKED IT UP

WHY’D YOU HAVE TO RUIN OUR RELATIONSHIP AND BUST IT UP

I WISH I NEVER MET YOU, WISH I NEVER HAD THE PLEASURE TO BE WITH YOU

LOOK GIRL THIS IS THE LAST OF WHAT I GIVE TO YOU

(I TOLD HER)

I DONT THINK WE’RE GONNA LAST TOO LONG

(HOW CAN I)

HOW CAN I LOVE YOU WHEN THE PASSIONS GONE

(AND I’M NOT)

I”M NOT TRY’NA MAKE YOU CRY I’M JUST TRY’NA MAKE YOU REALIZE

THAT WE’RE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER


THERE AINT A BETTER FEELING IN THE WORLD THAN HANGING WITH YOU

LAYING WITH YOU STAYING WITH YOU LADY IT’S THE TRUTH NO I’M NOT PLAYING WITH YOU

MAYBE IF YOU FELT LIKE I FEEL, THIS COULD BE WONDERFUL

MAYBE IF YOU FELT LIKE I FEEL, I’D BE THE ONE FOR YOU

BUT INSTEAD YOU MAKE IT SEEM LIKE BITCHES ARE IN BETWEEN

OUR BUSINESS YOU’VE MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU DONT TRUST ME

BUT INSTEAD YOU MAKE IT SEEM LIKE BITCHES ARE IN BETWEEN

OUR BUSINESS YOU’VE MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU DONT TRUST ME

(I TOLD HER)

I DONT THINK WE’RE GONNA LAST TOO LONG

(HOW CAN I)

HOW CAN I LOVE YOU WHEN THE PASSIONS GONE

(AND I’M NOT)

I”M NOT TRY’NA MAKE YOU CRY I’M JUST TRY’NA MAKE YOU REALIZE

THAT WE’RE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER

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14 Responses to “Not Meant To Be (with lyrics)…”

  1. Anonymous May 3, 2010 at 4:31 pm #

    This song has always been one of my favorites of all time. It expresses how I feel time and time again.

  2. Anonymous May 3, 2010 at 5:40 pm #

    Great song.definetely brings back memories,and thanks for posting the lyrics.

  3. Alex May 4, 2010 at 3:30 am #

    good song and by the way is “still walking” gonna be on lively-hood

  4. Anonymous May 4, 2010 at 8:30 am #

    I’m a new fan of yours and have been loving your music since the first time RocksOff wrote about you. I know you’ve been around for a while but finding your old songs is like me finding a new pair of heels, and for a girl that’s a pretty big deal! Eventhough “Not Meant To Be” is from a guys perspective, I changed her to him and was like damnnnnnn this is exactly what needs to be said to those that are triflin ass fools!! Thanks for posting the lyrics and I look forward to hearing more of your music!

    • cassettecoast May 4, 2010 at 1:39 pm #

      Hahaha. I’ve never had my music compared to shoe shopping! That’s a great analogy. I’ll try and point u towards more of the stuff you’ve missed out on in future posts.

  5. sleepy May 5, 2010 at 3:10 pm #

    GREAT SONG CANT STOP LISTENIN TO IT THANKS FOR THE LYRICS I REALLY THOUGHT IT SAID “HOW CAN I LOVE YOU WHEN THE PAST IS GONE” THANKS FOR CLEARIN IT OUT FOR ME I WAS WONDERIN IF YOU COULD ALSO PUT THE LYRICS TO THE SONG” JEZEBEL” ASLO A GREAT SONG YOUR TRUELY A LYRICAL BEAST!!

  6. SITICMUZIK May 8, 2010 at 2:34 am #

    THIS SONG INSPIRED ME WHEN I WAS BARELY STARTING MY MUZIK…

  7. w11101112 June 29, 2010 at 1:56 am #

    What happened to Vencente during the time this song was made? As I understand it, he was once in this “group”.
    Why didn’t he make the album with you guys?
    I am very curious…

  8. Anonymous December 7, 2010 at 11:57 am #

    this song is so amazing.im berly 14 and i can already relate to this.!!!!

  9. Mailove524 December 27, 2010 at 6:55 pm #

    love this sonq!!Thanks to my husband i heard it &
    now that he’s in the pin he’s asking for your lyrics haa LOVE iS
    STRENGTH THANKS

  10. call me anthony. January 6, 2011 at 11:46 am #

    omg i freaken love this song.
    this song is just beast.;D.
    like i feel like i can relate to this song so much.

  11. Bob" February 8, 2011 at 5:23 pm #

    This is a qreat sonq , damn brinqs back memories .

  12. Chris b June 1, 2011 at 6:57 pm #

    This song is the truth. Ive been playing this song since the album was released. always kinda helps me think. A true classic. So whats up with still walking? I got the twin beredaz, tol 1 & 2 and never heard it till i youtubed u the other day. What album is it gonna be on? That line “people tell me i drink too much i say your right. Its probably cause i think too much.” i feel you on!

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